October 14, 1978

33 yrs. ago, on a day much like today, I married my best friend.  The leaves had begun to fall, & so we gathered many & decorated the hall with logs split in half & 3 candles placed on nails & then scattered a few leaves around the log for centerpieces on all the tables.  It was beautiful.  So much of it I don't remember...guess I was in that wedding bliss fog.  Altho, I do remember how happy I was & wanted everything to be perfect....doesn't every bride?  I thought it would last forever...isn't that what the vows were about...forever....loving each other forever?  Of course there were hard times...every marriage has them.  But sometimes the hard times pull you apart & after so many over so many years, the love dwindles.  Oh yeah, you still care about each other, but in a different way.  The spark is gone.  The "being in love" is gone.  It's sad, very sad, especially today & I don't suppose Thanksgiving (which has always been at our house) & Christmas will be any easier.  The kids birthdays will come & go with probably seperate celebrations, but at least they are grown.  Remaining friends is the plan...remaining together, as husband & wife, is not. :(
Yes, it's sad, very sad.