what i know

Depression....I could look it up, but I know what it means.  It means that I get the brunt of it because there are some who apparently feel that when one gets old, you have no time for them.   You never call just for the heck of it or even return calls.  You don't just visit, ever.  You do your duty when it's convenient for you.  You didn't use to be that way.  You used to call everyday when you worked at that one place.  You are now retired & it's gotten worse.  Ah, depression...it means the world sucks & everyone in it.  It means no one can say or do anything to fix it.  It means a great big giant pity party.  It means silence...or not.  It means take sides.  It means dragging out bits & pieces of conversation like pulling teeth.  It means things will get better...until the next funk. It means bringing one down along with you is inevitable.  It sucks.  There's not an app for it. There's no magic potion for it.  There is a happy pill, but refusal to actually take action is mute.  Depression....I could look it up, but I know what it means.